I don't know what's worse, when your parents are proud of you for trying your best and your best is a C grade, or when you're already doing your best but your parents believe in your ability to do better and you have to disappoint them. Because I can't be proud of myself for being a failure.
I think it's easier to hate yourself more than you hate others. What people say to you can literally leave scars on your skin reminding you of how ugly and how stupid you are.
Once you fail yourself, there's nowhere left to go. That's why for my Aokigahara drawing, I deliberately wrote 'no return' instead of 'no entry'. The girl in the drawing is me. I